It’s been a few months since I’ve had the time or inclination to sit down and spew. Or navelgaze. Or contemplate my Daddy issues. Or make a list.
So here I am, ready to do all of that and more.
My friend died back in February. She was murdered and it was violent and it was public (and continues to be so) and it makes no sense and has brought up a swirl of People Who Claimed To Know Her and weird, politically-glued rantings from people who were in any kind of proximity to her. I felt really muffled in my heart around that time because any death is complicated but this one was especially so. I’ve made myself dig out from all the feels so I can get back to some kind of normalcy and that has included the following:
- My Papaw is dying and I’ll be making another trip to Arkansas any day now to help with those arrangements and hug my Momma. This death, too, will be complicated because my poor Granny doesn’t have the tools to effectively deal with this and my Mom has been shouldering almost 100% of the emotional, physical, and spiritual load. I am not there so all I can do is send money, much to my Mom’s protest. I told her if I lived there I would be spending it anyway on gas or supplies or paying someone to mow the yard but still, she protests. I send checks anyway and hope that it will ease some of the burden from her already-stretched-thin pursestrings.
- We had half of the back acreage mowed down and it looks like a park back there and I can’t wait to make a coven circle out of the old tree stump and lone dogwood that is still standing somewhat strong.
- I didn’t go to school for the Summer semester and it was the best decision I’ve made in a long time.
- I got a huge promotion…like, seriously HUGE. I know it’s shitty and trashy to talk about money but it was a $12,000 raise and a bump in my bonus percentage so I am ALLLLL about that. My work hours have elongated a bit since getting the promotion but it’s worth it because I’m feeling strong and creative and valued and that’s kinda what matter right now.
- JD and I are tearing out the closets and flower beds and getting rid of shit together. We changed the light fixture in the bar area and hung a ton of vintage lights on the back deck. The party pad is slowly coming togehter and we both love it.
- I caught a baby possum and kept it for a couple of days. It was one of the sweetest experiences ever.
- That’s all I can think of for now.
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