I’m well. How about you?
It’s been a minute, dear reader, and I’m sure you know by now that I had grand notions of pouring my heart’s desires out onto these electronic pages more frequently but life has a way of snatching you baldheaded, so here we are 6 months later.
What’s changed? I’m 6 months older. 30 pounds lighter. Surrounded by puppy love. We have a new pool and deck. I saw my Momma and Brother finally. I’m working down a list of “things to try…” Oh, and we went to New York and spent an insane amount of cash on Broadway shows, shopping, food, and galavanting and I don’t regret a single bit of it.
Things I’m trying: I auditioned for a role in “Steel Magnolias” and got the part. I’m in my second week of live performance as we speak and it’s fun and exhilarating and creative and so much more work than I ever knew but I am having the time of my life. Oh, and I’m also trying that thing where I let go of perfectionism and I’m inviting people to the house even though we have unfinished projects everywhere. Oh, and I’m taking better care of my body and mental health.
I’m well. I still drink too many Monster energy drinks and still spend too much time on social media (although less and less these days) and I still work too many hours but…baby steps.
Dreams: Things I’d do if I had unlimited time and money? I’d write a lot more than I do. I’d read a lot more than I do. I’d travel more. I’d buy my Momma her Louis Vuitton (although I’m planning on making that one happen for Christmas). I’d probably spend a lot more time dreaming away in the sun with a hot puppy on my lap and a breeze sending me into other worlds in my mind.
Gratitude: That some of my favorite perfume doesn’t give me a headache like others do. That people freely talk about the good things I’ve done even if I don’t remember doing them – and this is much less about meeeee per se, but more about how it is nice to know that other people experience me as a kind person who does nice things for others. That my knee is still mostly cooperating. That my career is paying my bills plus some.
Extra double gratitude: JD is coming out of her funk and its’s mostly due to the new pups. She’s worked so hard to get through the grief of her parents and has never let go of my hand even through her worst days but there are things that even my love cannot heal. These pups…and specifically CRAIG, have reminded her heart that love is available and she is back to her cuddly, smiling, wonderful self. How I missed my wife. It wasn’t every day or even every week but her struggling through all the grief made her more insular and God, it’s hard not to want to fix fix fix fix fix fix, even if I knew it wasn’t mine to fix. Craig is magic and his little yum-yum bottom lip is the fairy dust that binds it all.
How are you, dear reader? How is your world?
